it has been 21 years as of today...21 years since my second eldest brother passed away....time seems to fly over these years...though sometimes i wonder whether his memories had been permanently erased from the banks of my mind but i think thats impossible....impossible due to the fact the kind of brotherly relationship i had with him....its seems like a far away memory the time i had cherished with him and now during my lonely times i long for the company....friends, thats how i can easily describe my relationship with him...even though he can be a pest at most of times, i guess thats just because my age which is always considered as a kiddy in the house....i can imagine how the relationship will be if he is alive and kicking with all of us now...but i guess his time is counted short on that dreaded day...i can still remember, after my mid term exams, i enjoyed so much in the school with friends, took the bus to get back home, the moment i went down at the main road i saw my eldest bro in a motorbike asking me to get back home and i was still in the dark until i get back home...from there onwards, my mind was like in a autopilot, everything seems to pass in slow motion....ahhh...there i go again...reminiscing old unnecessary moments...

anyway, we're doing a small prayers in the house today, not to remember his death or to give food for his soul, take it as a celebration for the colourful despite short life he had with all of us...."We started the race together, though you finished the race earlier, ill be looking for you at the gates of heaven, wait for me my dear bro"......RIP!!!!

Joy oh Joy!!

Remember my earlier post about the training apparatus at the commonwealth park....guess what, its all back and what made me joyous to the max is all the equipments are the new models with ability to work out numerous group of body parts...so for all of u so call fitness freaks who were forced to sign up for the colourful and bullcraps such as fiftenss firts (fitness first hahha) and cal fitness and so on, QUIT and come enjoy the free ride that had been provided by the government (even though they are actually killing us thru the oil price and so on). All included which is cardio and muscle workout....and for those who needs to exercise their iris and cornea (eyes la), there is a whole lot of 'scenery' to watch out for also...check out the pics...even though the equipments are still unusable as the cement works are still not completed but the things are still in their plastic wrappers...hhhaaa.....at last! FOOOOOH!

Trying to be fit and healthy!!!!

nevertheless thats the word for the past two months..hehhe....i have been jogging, lightweight training and most importantly involved in badminton (not "bed"minton) and soccer just to bring back my old fitness level hence the waistline i used to adorn before....one of the venue that i frequent is the commonwealth park at the bukit jalil vicinity as it has the free version of the weight training hardware's and furthermore i dun much believe in the fitness craze that has been washing all over quite recently such as the celebrity fitness, fitness first and the other craps.....however, imagine my wrath last week as i finished my daily jog around the lake and after washing my eyes with some beautiful sights, the apparatus for the training had been all dismantled most probably by the park management and a stupid laminated notice is displayed on the ground saying "Peralatan sedang Diselenggara"...ooi bring back la the things....already they'd dismantled the whole lot previously leaving behind only 2 machines, now itu dua pun sudah hilang...camne la aku nak eksesais.......pics are attached for grieving is necessary...note..back in my teenage years i used to squat 200lbs with a bench press of almost 150lbs...imagine how powerful i was...hahhahhah...

My car fuel tank cheated me!!

hmmph..thats what actually happened for the past 1.5 weeks....i din do much like wht others do on the eve of the price hike....queuing up at petrol stations like maddies to fill up their tanks...but is did made me think when i went over to the station to fill up after 4 days later....i drive a middle class man car...a Hyundai...of which it used to be about RM80 for a maximum full tank...so when i did another fill up after the hike i thot itll be abt RM10 extra...but im wrong....yesterday, dad came down to visit his granddaughter (my girl) and as usual he took the public transport as he believes driving down is too much (cant blame him) and i have to go to the stupid Puduraya to fetch him..i do know that the car has already running on fumes as the tank is totally empty when i reached the dreaded Jln Tun Razak...so i stopped at the Caltex beside Tan&Tan to fill up...i paid RM90 to the cashier and started to do the necessary....imagine my shock as i entered the car the tank showed only 2/3rd full....i went down to check whether my tanks is leaking but its not...so i have to add another RM20 to add up the fuel....as such, a full tank now will cost me an approx of RM110...

thanks to the government...and now i have to look for a better paying job.......

3 stitches after!!!

my wife requested me to make chicken curry that weekend...i guess it was the 30/4.....me with the enthusiasm like a child who is going to have his first bicycle (or "bacheh" according to my little one) ride, woke up early and started cooking....but no...i like super sharp knives to do the cutting so i decided to sharpen it with the high grade carborundum stone i bought last time..after about 6-7 friction after made the movement much faster and thats when the tragedy struck...i've cut my thumb at the connecting point to the palm...blood everywhere, wife and the maid was dumbstruck, dunno wht to do, and i had to wrap the hand with a bandanna i bought 10-13 years ago (skull design) and head on to the nearest reliable hospital i.e. The Columbia Medical centre, but unfortunately the locum in charge made a hasty job...3 stitches after i went back home and had to wait for another week to open back the whole thing...anyway it took 3 complete weeks to heal properly even though now i do have occasional pricking pain at the area...see the pics for a clear idea..ehhehhehhe..be careful with ur knives....

Is this a BLOG????

is this a blog..effectively??? yeah yeah, for those who have been passing thru this blog by reading the ramblings ive entered without any remarks, that could pose as a valid query..but what am i doing here.......THE ANSWER...its not just something that i do to follow the lot, it seems nowadays every Tom, DICK and Harry have their own blog...but ME...naaaahhh!!! Lemme take you all back, hmmmmmm lets say 15 years ago...while i was still stooping around in secondary school...i have no habit of keeping a diary, though i did have a worn out scrap book, of which i scrabbled some stupid compositions and short stories just for the sake of fun. It does make fun of some people around me at most, and friends that had a chance to read it really enjoyed it and laughed to the max. However, this blog is not targeted to have the same effect as the scrap book of which is it is most of u souls will never even bother to read the rest as most of the writings will be extreme in all sense...anyway, of with that..mothers day is comin, just around the corner...last year with my daughter still 4 months old plus i sent my wifey a card on behalf of her....still thinking what to do for this year ....maybe ill get a enlightenment soon which of course ill update here...till then...adios amigos!!!!

Free at last, free at last, Thanks GOD Almighty, we're free at last!!

quoting the great Reverend Martin Luther King's famous words..i think it still does not suit our community down here in this great country as oppression is still the middle of the govt..wht is freedom of speech (the only freedom i guess is more on the cyber space which might be controlled on the near future)...publication permit not continued...these are part of the hurdles that we have to face in the current ongoing affairs of the state...life is unfair but definitely we do not need and unGodly intervention by humans to make it much worse. My job hunting days when i stopped work at a financial institution (after almost 8 years of unappreciated dog work) i was jobless for almost 9 months with a temporary attachment with a govt consultancy body for contractors (i was not called a govt staff still) whereby the pay was a meager allowance of RM500 which is not even enough for my monthly car installments (by the way it was twice close to repossession) and the end was a bitter pill for me to swallow as it has ended abruptly without a single notice from them. Those 9 months was total misery as i wake up early in the morning to send my gf (now wife and mother of my daughter) to work, i would stop by the roadside and look at all the ppls going to work and comparing myself to them...i do had some support from certain parties i.e. my gf, dad and my mil (mother in law)..however back to my job hunting adventures....so many interviews i attended which most of them ended when the interviewer sees me walking in into the room and realising that im and Indian (oops i think thats the wrong word to use as Indians do have a wide meaning..correcting myself ---> as a Tamillian). I guess they were dumb enough to realize that im a tamillian by looking at a/l or s/o acronyms in the application forms. I know that being a tamillian in this country i had already lost 50% of my chance of going through the interview process when i go to any interviews during my tenure as a jobless man..however, hope is not something that i lose or take for granted...faith is one of the pillar i had during those days...countless days spent looking at the ocean and swamps (in PD) and the pressure that i was in could've even prompted others to attempt suicide however sanity is always there for me....i have a job now, a job that i am proud of even though i am only a parking attendant (hehheh) but i do provide a lots of souls who are in the same predicament that i went through during those days a chance of reviving their hopes...at least that the only thing i can do to give them a fair chance of obtaining a proper job as to pay their bills and so on knowing that they have 50% lesser chance of getting a proper job....in my word i still think that we are not that free actually at least for the current moment.....